Thursday, July 12, 2012

Dichotomy {A Bigger Picture Moment}


There is something about being alone, without children and noise and clamor.  Something about silence.  Something about muffled needs and deep breaths.  There's something about relief and relaxation and unbundling that comes with being alone. 

The way a thought is allowed to begin -- a flake of dust settles onto a shelf --

and grow -- a hand sweeps over the dust, scattering it --

and move forward into something else entirely -- a puff of twinkling motes swirling in the light --

without ever once being interrupted.

There is just something about being alone.

Walking up the front steps, I hug it tight to my skin before releasing it into the sunset.  I open the door and let myself in where the children are racing and yelling and being gloriously noisy.

It's mama! 

Oh, MAMA!!  Mama's home!!

The arms surround my legs and waist pulling me down, erasing the last, clinging breaths of solitude. 

Each voice is telling a story about games or songs or snacks or all of them at the same time.  If a speck of thought-dust were to fall in the vicinity of my soul at this very moment, it would be buffeted about without ever reaching the ground.  There is no silence.  There is no stillness. 

But there are kisses.  There is joy.  There is a flailing, smiling baby, reaching for my arms.  There is a husband who has already cleared the dinner dishes.  There is bedtime.  There is craziness from all sides and it feels like slow heat, seeping into my skin.

There is something about being surrounded.




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9 comments:

  1. Oh yes, there is something indeed about both of those things!

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  2. And the one makes you appreciate the other so much more!

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  3. It's pieces like this that remind me to be content when alone and when surrounded...it's so easy for me to miss the gifts of each as I clamor for the other...thanks for this!

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  4. It is funny how there can be so much joy in both of those... and how they each look different when there is some distance!
    Lovely...

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  5. This totally made me smile. Solitude and surrounded - both lovely things in their own right!

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  6. Silence and Surrounded... MY TWO FAVORITE THINGS!!! Loved this. Just LOOOOOVED this. :)

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  7. I have to work through this every day. There moments I crave silence and then once I have it I feel a need to be surrounded again...I believe it's the way of a mother. It must be embraced. :-)

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  8. I think that the bliss and joy of silence allows us to fully appreciate and enjoy the hustle and bustle of being surrounded, and by allowing ourselves that silence we more truly engage and love the being surrounded.

    Lovely.

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  9. Mmmhmmm. And it seems like finding the right balance between the two is just ... hard. But, there are kisses. :-)

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Hmm...And how did that make you FEEL?