Thursday, March 15, 2012

Bigger Picture Moment: Making History

On television, the man stood tall.  Shoulders back, chin tilted, hands clasped with confidence.  His endeavor -- the one he'd bled passion into for years -- was ready to be seen, evaluated, loved.  The world was about to be changed, all with a simple unveiling. 

Under his breath, the man whispered: we're making history tonight.

And I always thought something else about that phrase.  I thought, something has been done that was good enough to MAKE it into history.  Worthy of being recorded somewhere and retold to generations.  Making history was equal to making the cut.  Making a goal.

But it echoes differently in my mind.  The television show blurs in the background.  My unfocused eyes watch hours-old memories while the noise of the world drifts into flatness.

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There's a deer in the woods, Lauren, come see! She exaggerates her tiptoes with deep swoops of shoulders and bent knees. Her head peeps up over the edge of the window, and we watch. The doe is glossy brown and still in the slanted morning sun. The edge of the forest is peppered with shadows and light, making patterns where there should be none, hiding others in tips of bare light. Where, mama? I can't see it. But the deer dips her head to the ground, nipping at something tender. Oh! There! She lifts her front leg to poise one hoof in the air: a delicate prelude. Then she melts into the forest, hiding in shadows and light.

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Her fist grips the wooden spoon much too high as she stirs.  Brown sugar melts into butter, and she is immersed in her job.  Completely focused.  There is one bit of sugar that won't crumble: a hard bit of sugar that was perhaps too moist became a round pebble of surprising candy.  Lauren pokes a finger into the mixture.  Tests the resolve of the pebble.  She looks sideways at me and sees my the encouragement of my lips, smiling because her desire is so clear.  I nod: a conspirator against cleanliness and patience and a few other forgotten virtues.  She digs the pebble free and pops it into her mouth.  Her eyes widen as she savors the goodness of sugar melting into butter onto tongue. 

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Last one to the car is a rotten egg!  We run across the parking lot, feet little and big stamping a rhythm into the night air.  Giggles and screams punctuate our beats, and -- breathless -- we fall into the open car doors in heaps.  Mama, YOU'RE THE ROTTEN EGG!  But I tickle them to release my rotten-ness in a burst of teasing love.  Oh, no! I shout, I better hurry and buckle in or I'll be a GIANT rotten egg!  They scream and scoot, backing away in a haste of feigned, joyful terror. 

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Her finger traces a line of words, the words trace a line of thought, and she is reading.  We snuggle in our pajamas on Mia's top bunk with a book propped between the two of us -- a bridge promising hearty tries and gentle encouragement.  Mispronounced vowels bleed into the silences, but recognition comes a second later.  Deep in my belly, there is a dizzy flutter of excitement.  I wonder if she feels it, too?  Does it travel up to my arms, pour out my fingertips, ripple across the pages of the book?  Does it burrow under her fingernails, wiggle up to her shoulders, cascade into her heart?  She is reading.  A paragraph is as long as an entire chapter might be, but still: she is reading.


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We're making our history, and we're making it right now.  Every activity, every touch, every word and glance -- they're all going to be made into a history.  Woven into the past, trailing out behind us as we step forward to choose another thread.  It's happening as I sit writing, as they sit coloring, as he sits working, as we sit living. 

History is being made.  And I intend to enjoy the making of it, simple as it may be.




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4 comments:

  1. I fall into that trap sometimes, too. Thinking the only things that are really important and history-making are the big, famous moments. But you're right, these everyday interactions bind themselves into their own history. And yours is beautiful, Sarah. Truly.

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    1. Thanks, Emma :) It feels good to admit that the small things are worthy, but it can almost be stifling sometimes too, you know? If it's ALL important, it makes me feel like I always need to be 'on'. Still, it's our history, and I want it to be a good one!

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  2. Oh lovely. Such a wonderful homemade quilt of vignettes.

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    1. Thank you, Jade! And what a wonderful description: a quilt of vignettes -- I like it :)

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