So here I am, in a holding pattern, itching to know if this baby's labor will happen naturally -- without induction, because I'm not allowed -- or if he'll go for a few more weeks and require the dreaded cesarean. As you can imagine, I'm a ball of what ifs right now. Surprisingly, I'm finding tons of ways to keep my mind off the worst-case scenario, which is actually not terrible, just...less-than-desirable.
I'm cleaning and cleaning and cleaning. And with all the cleaning, you'd think my house would be gorgeous by now, right? Heh. Only in small bursts, in small corners, and insofar as I can summon the will to reach the floor to do the job right.
I'm finishing up my birth plan, which includes about one-third the amount of wishes and demands of my very first birth plan. It's funny how my authority and expectations have fallen into something that includes more understanding and positivity. I guess it helps that I've been through this twice now, so I know what needs to be stated and what can be left alone. Like, Mother wishes to labor in her own clothing. Because I've spent hours contemplating what on earth I could wear in a hospital that would facilitate delivery while adequately covering me, to no avail. I'm at a loss.
I'm compiling my labor and delivery playlist -- which is still open for suggestions, by the way!
I'm relishing the arrival of fall! It means we get to play outside for hours on end again! (And pose for torpedo-belly shots without having to edit out the sweat!)
But yes, in the middle of all that activity (which does not, you'll notice, include painting the nursery -- something we've decided is too much work for not enough reward), I'm afret. A tiny bit afret. (Doesn't 'afret' look tiny in and of itself? No matter if it's not even a real, live word. I like it.)
So distract me, please! Tell me something funny or gross or...uplifting or encouraging. Link me to your favorite blog post of the past week (because something I haven't been doing is keeping up with blog reading). Whatever happens, keep me from worrying!